Today is my oldest sister, Cami's, 21st birthday. I should really consider making her a gift, but my only talents are common sense and drawing. Plus I have major art block and I don't even know what I'm drawing. I should at least still try after school at least.

School is awkwardly the second thing on my mind right now. I'm so reluctant to go to school. There's supposed to be state tests starting this week. It's not that I'm nervous ( i kinda am ), but I'm just afraid that I'll fail. That's why I need to step up and try my best to work harder at it. Remember that Math test I'm talking about? Going to have to take it during class. ;) Hopefully I have time to study during Lunch instead of being a goof.

The first thing on my mind - uh - I'll just admit it here. I have a crush on someone at school. :C We started to talk more and we're on a road to being best buds, but I kind of want it to be farther in a way. In a way, I could feel the love tension although it's not even there. I don't even want to make the first move just like someone did in a past experience, but if I really want 'em I'll just have to build up the confidence. Corny love picture from WeHeartIt time.


I'm so scared of what they'll think though. I guess that's how that someone felt when they pulled it off on me. I don't know. I feel trapped in emotions. Real guys don't want to admit it, but on this blog I'm all truthful.

Should I do it or not? I'm afraid, but I want it at the same time. Hopefully I'll figure it out..